welcome to adulthood...again...

(started on 11/3/12) We have hit another adult milestone. On Wednesday October 31st we decided to put our house up for sale. This has been such a difficult decision for me. I DO NOT handle change well at all....I cried for 3 hours on my wedding night because everything had just changed....needless to say that I am having major anxiety about this whole decision. The worst part is that technically this isn't even my house...Brett bought it 4 and a half years ago, before we even started dating. I think the reason I am having such a hard time with selling is because everything major that has happened in our relationship has been at this house, heck, we only started talking because he had bought this house and wanted my friends and I to come see it. We made the decision to start dating while sitting in this house. We made the decision to took at engagement rings in this house. We got engaged in this house and planned our wedding here. We spent our first Thanksgiving and Christmas as a married couple in this house. We had both miscarriages in this house. This house has made us the couple that we are. Its going to be so hard to leave this all behind.

Go figure, as I was typing this on Saturday, Brett called me saying that someone was coming over in an hour to look at the house. I seriously have never cleaned and left my house so fast. I had 6 bags of clothes that were sitting in my family room that I threw into my car, vacuumed the whole house, cleaned both bathrooms, made our bed, changed out of my grunge clothes, grabbed the dog and ran.

We also had another person come look at the house on Sunday. He just made us an offer today and we are going to counter offer tomorrow.

I am getting more and more excited/nervous that we are selling and moving. I can't wait to be in a new house and start from scratch and start decorating. But then I think "UGH!!! I have to start ALL over again..." Crap.....Brett is going to kill me....I am going to want to paint everything.....

It wouldn't be the holidays if we weren't doing a project around the house or moving. 2 years ago, the weekend before Thanksgiving, we moved from the apartment  back into the house. Then a year ago, a week before hosting Thanksgiving dinner for 15 people, I got a bug up my butt and wanted to paint the family room/dining room and guest bathroom.....Brett is going to be so thrilled when I have a WHOLE new canvas! Plus with him working in retail he has to deal with Black Friday and holiday hours...this poor man and all that he has to put up with me....sometimes I feel bad for him....sometimes being the keyword....he knew what he was marrying....

Hopefully the house will sell fast and we can find our next dream home soon....I don't wanna be homeless for long....wish us luck!