happiness and heartbreak

I have so many emotions going through me right now, I feel like I could explode at any minute....and I don't know if I would cry or hysterically laugh.

To start out, the happiness is because Brett passed his Real Estate exam and will now be an agent! I couldn't be more proud of my man. He seriously works so hard for our little family and does everything he can to make sure that I am taken care of. While working on getting his license he was also working full time(over 40 hours most weeks) and also is enrolled at SLCC for his Associates Degree. He is such an amazing man. He has such a drive in life that you don't see in many people and that's just one of the millions of things that I love about him. I could not have asked for a better best friend and partner in life.

Heartbreak.....this last week has shown me how much life can really suck balls sometimes. My parents ward is seriously going through hell right now. A young lady in their ward was visiting Louisiana to get to know her birth father. While there she was in a terrible accident and has sustained such horrible injuries that no one should ever have to sustain. Because of her injuries the doctors have had to amputate most of her right leg. She is fighting infection and basically fighting for everything. Her poor mother and father were home in Murray and had to find a way to pay for flights out there. My heart aches for her parents and having to watch their daughter fight for her life while also worrying about their children that are home.

More heartbreak.....another family in my parents ward and one that I grew up with is going through the worst possible thing that a young family has to go through. While on vacation in Hawaii celebrating his 25th anniversary, the father of this family passed away. His poor wife is alone in Hawaii dealing with a broken heart and trying to figure out how to live life without the love of her life. I think about his poor children who are too young to have to say goodbye to their dad. I think about his wife and how much her life is going to change, how much change she shouldn't be having to even think about because they are so young.

This week has definitely reminded me that I need to hold my family close. I need to make sure that when I say "I love you" at the end of a phone call, to Brett before leaving for work or going to bed at night, that I say it with meaning. I think that as we go throughout life, we tend to say things in a routine. We tend to forget that the people we love wont always be around.

I think back to almost 3 years ago when my dad was in the hospital fighting for his life and all the feelings I had. I remember thinking how am I going to live my life day to day without my dad and knowing that I could just pick up the phone and talk to him. How was my mom going to live without him. We are so blessed that he is still here healthy.

Sorry this was such a depressing post, I just needed an outlet to share and this is where it happened.