dents, moms and rants

For mothers day hubs and I went to Crystal Hot Springs for a night with his mom,stepdad,brothers and sister. It was a lot of fun. We hung out in the hot pools for a while and then went back to the motorhome and played Skip-Bo and Apples to Apples. We woke up the next morning and started packing up so that we could come home and spend time with my mom. I finished packing up the car and went to put my purse in the front seat....thats when I noticed....my car had a massive dent in it! I instantely freaked out and then broke down crying! I bawled! My poor car that I've had since I was 16 and protected was now DENTED!! Who did this and why didnt you leave a note?! I was so frustrated! And then coming home and calling the insurance company didn't help. He told us we only had liability, so we were going to have to pay to repair it. What?! I dont have that kind of money! HELLO?! I'm trying to save for a house. But luckily my handy dandy husband and dad fixed it today. Its not the best but it does look a lot better. My poor baby :(

On Mothers day it is tradition that my family goes to the cemetary and cleans up and put flowers on the grave of my 2 grandmothers, 2 great-grandmothers, and some great-aunts. We also went and put flowers on Brett's grandmas grave. I figure since I do this for my grandmas we should do it for his too. We also put some flowers on my fake grandmothers grave. She died last year. I only knew one of my grandmas. My dads mom died before I was born. I was lucky to at least have one Grandma for 18 years. I love my grandma dearly. She was crazy and at times could be so cruel. But she was my grandma. I had to love her. She was such an amazing woman. She lived without her husband for 23 years. I look up to her so much for that. She lost the love of her life and still managed to live. I cant imagine losing Brett and living that long without him...I want to die first(selfish right?). I love my grandma dearly and miss her so much. But I know she is happy and reunited with her love. I love you Grandma and know that you watch over us everyday!

Now its time for a little rant. I feel that since I got married I have lost priveleges and friends....I'm sorry if you read this and get offended but this is how I feel and I dont want to say it to your face because I dont want to hurt you..but this is how I feel. I'm not looking for pitty...I hate pitty. It makes things even worse. I want my friends back. I feel that now that I am married the only time I am invited out with friends is with my married friends(Who is my mom and her friends who I have now adopted). It hurts to hear and see that everyone hangs out every weekend while hubs and I sat at home and have to hear about the fun online or a couple days later. I feel left out. I feel like I'm back in elementary and just lost my friends because I picked my nose, so now I have to find new ones. I have talked to a friend about this and she just jokes that its because I'm an old married woman...but I feel like its true and it sucks. But maybe its just me....I dont know. Like I said...this isn't to make anyone feel guilty. I just needed to get it off my chest. I don't want your pitty cause thats just lame.