love

I'm sure you have all heard that "Distance makes the heart grow fonder". I used to question this. How does distance make the heart grow fonder. Shouldn't you be already so happy and in love that you can get more happy in love. Well this last weekend made me believe. It made me believe in love and the strong bond that love is. It made me believe that you can meet someone that makes you stop thinking about yourself and all you can think about is them. It made me believe that we all have that one person that nothing is more important. How did this happen. Well.....the hubby is a big hunter. Once hunting season hits he is like a caged animal itching to just go hunt. He went down south, an hour out of Loa to go bow hunting. He spent 4 days down there. He left at 5 am Friday morning and didn't come home till 5 pm Monday night. LONGEST 4 DAYS OF MY LIFE! Last year I was able to go with him on his hunting trip....I then realized how boring it is to sit in camp for 5 hours by yourself while all the boys go hunt...it also got really smelly with 4 boys not showering. So this year I opted out of the boredom and stench and decided to stay home. I spent the weekend at my parents. I hate staying in the apartment by myself at night so I slept at my parents. I love being able to sleep over there. But I missed my home and my husband. Every minute I thought about. There seriously was not one minute of the day that he wasnt in my head. He didn't have service down there so I wasnt even able to get a phone call or text. It killed me. I hate not knowing whats going on and if he is ok. Luckily I had my parents who kept me busy. I also had an all day scrapbook event that kept my mind busy. I was so excited when I woke up Monday morning because I knew he was coming home. And then I got a text from him telling me they were on their way. I was so excited and couldn't wait for the next 4 hours to be over because then he would be home and everything would be normal again. And then I get another text saying that they think the ball joint on the motorhome is bad and that it might take 4 hours to get it repaired...SERIOUSLY?! I was so bummed that now I have to wait 8 hours for him to drive home. Um no this is not ok....and then I get another text saying that brakes had just heated up and seized, but everything is fine and they're on the road. WOOHOO! Needless to say they made it home safe and sound and I was happy again.

I also need to say that I look up to you women who have husbands that have to travel for work constantly, and also who's husbands are in the service. I cant imagin having to send my husband off to a dangerous place and not be able to talk to him for days on end. I couldnt do it and it makes me cry just thinking about it. You women are so strong and so brave. I look up to you so much. I am too weak to have to deal with that.

I love my husband so much and cant imagine what I would do without him here all the time. He is my best friend and love of my life. And even though I get annoyed with him sometimes I would never want to not have him in my life. He is the best man I know. He accepts me for me. He accepts my imperfections and my OCD and my tendencies to freak out over nothing. He accepts that I worry everyday about him and knows that I only worry because I love him and cant imagine my life without him.